Aku.
Terhanyut oleh indahnya kehidupan dunia
Oleh godaan nafsu yang sentiasa menduga
Lalai, lupa dan leka...
Akan tujuan diamanahkan Pencipta Agung

Diriku mahu pergi.
Kepada yang lebih baik

Aku lemah...
Tatkala ujian mendatang
Ku sering jatuh tertewas
Tindak dan buat, kulaku tanpa fikir
Dan mula pedih akan kesannya kuterasa

Diriku mahu pergi.
Kepada yang lebih kental

Aku.
Tatkala malam mendatang
Sepi menyapa...
Mula ku memikirkan semula apa yang kulalui
Lantas perasaan sesal dan sedih mula menyelubungi

Diriku mahu pergi.
Kepada yang lebih berkeyakinan

Aku.
Mahu pergi dari diri ini
Diri yang sering kecundang akan ujian dan tewas akan nafsu dugaan
Aku mahukan aku yang baru
Yang mampu menggembirakan ibu ayah
Yang boleh mengharumkan keluarga
Yang berguna kepada masyarakat
Yang membawa kejayaan duniawi dan ukhrawi
Yang lebih dekat kepada Allah dan Rasul-Nya

Aku mahu pergi.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

 Hi guys. Sleepy huh? Its 2.00 am already. You all should feel sleepy. Me? I'm already sleep by the time I finished writing this post :P

 The last few weeks had been really a huge setback for me. I had to face three examinations which I never ready for. Since I got the feeling to exchange my major, everything become blur to me. I have no longer vibrant to study like the two semesters before. I don't see any target, any mission to be accomplished because of this feeling. My mood also now unpredictable. Sometimes I feel happy and most of the time I feel nothing. Felt like I am nobody. Just a body with nothing to do with this gigantic world. -,-'

Tired with all these things. Need a new beginning.

 So back to the exam that I had been through, the first one is Chemistry 1. 50-50! That's all I can conclude for my Chemistry exam. I did some revision before the exam, but I don't think its ample. But I just can't do more. I got no strength to revise it all. Even seeing my roomate been doing exercise night and day, I don't affected at all. On the day of the examination, I'm acted like every exam I sat before. I can answer the questions, but I don't really sure what did I wrote on the paper. After the exam, we had a week of break. I didn't really enjoy the break as after I had my dental appointment at HUSM I got fever. The pain inside my tooth really made me uncomfort for a few days. A week after that, I went back to CFSIIUM. And my head still dizzy at that moment.

 Last Friday, I had my Physics II exam. This time I quite enjoyed the questions as I kinda like this subject. I don't know why but Physics is kinda fun. But not Math and Chemistry. They were both killers! But the exam also did not went well. This time we got a really annoying kid throughout the examination which held for 2 hours. We, Physics II G66 students had examination at LY016. Unfortunate for us as the invigilator brought her kid there. Urghhh! That kid really annoyed us. Screaming. Running around. We totally can't focus on the questions given. The invigilator herself just let her kid play around and make noise all around the LY Building. But thanks to Allah that I managed to answer it. But same with Chemistry 1, I don't really sure whether I answered it right or wrong. Whatever happen, happen. Nothing can be done already. Just let bygone be bygone.

 The next day was the most terrible day for me. The Math II exam! I am really lack of skills on this subject. In class I try to focus 200%, but nothing! I can't absorb what the lecturer teach me. It just like I know this and that throughout the class session, but after that everything GONE! Just gone. I did bought the compilation paper of last semester questions. But I can't really answer them. Even I questions! So the night before the exam I just take a look at the answers given. Hoping that I would understand something. But that also already happen. So just let it be. During the exam, I just use the first hour to answer the questions. After that I was doodling my question papers. Drawing this and that. I had thought deeply, I will drop this subject after this. I can't do it anymore. I'll just breaks my lecturer hope if I continue the class I guess.

Hope that I'll not ended up regretting for trying new things

 After days of days thinking and deciding, I had made my final decision. I will stop doing engineering. I will exchange my majoring next semester. But my choice is still secret. Whether I'll go to Economics, English or Architecture study. What I am really sure is that I am no longer an engineer. I had gave up! I think this is the best for me. Eventhough I kinda love physics but physics alone is not enough. I hope that I had made a right decision and I hope there will be no problems in exchanging my majoring here in IIUM. in shaa Allah :)

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.


 At 8.30pm this Saturday 23 March 2013, millions of people around the world will turn out the lights for the prestigious Earth Hour. This awareness movement is intended to get people talking about the importance of reducing human impact on the Earth.

 Here you will find lists of activities that you can do to save energy, reduce your impact on environment, and help spread awareness about Earth issues such as climate change. You don't have to wait for the next Earth Hour to try out some of these energy saving techniques. They are great way to practice conservation monthly, weekly or even everyday! Even planning ways to conserve is a great way to reassess our dependencies, and our impact on Earth.

Here are something you can do to prepare yourself for EARTH HOUR 2013. Remember that saving energy is about more than just turn off the lights. Challange yourself to do some or all  of these saving things for Earth Hour - and every day - to save energy and help the planet gain its stability ;)

#10 Fill Up Your Freezer

Did you know that an empty freezer uses more than a full one?

If you have empty space in your freezer or deep-freeze, you can conserve energy - and reduce your electric bill - by freezing used pop bottles or milk jugs of water. Fill empty containers about 2/3rds full and place them in your freezer. The ice will help maintain the temperature inside the freezer, allowing it to use less energy.

#9 Invite Your Friends Over

You can help spread Earth Hour awareness by inviting your friends, family or neighbors to join you for Earth Hour activities. A few friendly faces can help make the time go faster, too!


#8 Fix Drafts


Drafty doors and windows cause your heating and cooling bills to go up. Try to repair or cover any drafts around your home before Earth Hour. The money you save will help throughout the year as well!

You can also keep heating and cooling costs down with thermal window coverings. But if you're pinching pennies, simple dark curtains can keep a room warm in winter, and white curtains keep it cool in summer.

#7 Turn Down the Heat


If you're living in a cool climate and have the heat on in March, try turning your heat down slightly for Earth Hour.

To minimize the amount of energy that you use for heating, make sure that heating units are well ventilated and not obscured by furniture. There should be at least a few inches of space between heaters and other objects for them to work efficiently.

Close off any rooms that are not used regularly, and only heat rooms that you need to. If you keep your thermostats at a moderate temperature throughout the day, you will use less energy than you do by turning it up and down at different times.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

 Hey guys. How are you? Doing okay? Me here feeling not so well since few days ( _ _ll). My head keep spinning and my nose just can't works efficiently. sigh

 Next semester is my final semester in CFSIIUM. That if and only if I manage to pass all the subjects taken. With my level of confidence right now, I don't think it can be happen. My brain can't focus on math and chemistry. It all feel so wrong. So blurry. And now I always thinking of running away from engineering. My mind now lock on Architectural study. I have been interested in this study since the first time I heard about it because I really like designing. Calculating and solving problem now become a problem to me! :(



 My CGPA also not so good. That's one of the factor why I want to exchange from Engineering to AED. But you know, study, it always hard. Nothing is easy! But I think maybe with some passion I can excel on this new discipline that I want to go to. Now I am really lost. Don't know what to do where to go. I really not in mood to finish this semester. Hoping that this semester will pass really fast and start the next semester with new discipline - Architecture and Environmental Design.

 I am not sure yet about my decision. Just afraid that if I change then it not feel like the way I hope it was. And if I don't exchange it now, then I will regret it later. Blerghhh! >,<' Life is so complicated. If I do it I can't rewind it and if I don't then it will passed. Just if I know what I am really made for -,-

 I hope that there's no problem for me to exchange course. Not a problem with the department and with my parents. InsyAllah.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Hohoho, apa khabar readers semua? :) Hope y'll happy and dah makan. Heheh.

So, hari ni dah lebih kurang sebulan dah dalam Semester 3 sesi 2012/2013 ni. Actually dah lama dah nak post pasal awal-awal sem 3 ni tapi apakan daya aku tak boleh access blogger.com guna laptop. Tak tahu jugak kenapa. Ni pun tengah mengarang guna phone je. Kecik gila keyboardnya -,-. Banyak jugak la yang berlaku dalam sebulan pertama ni.

First-first bukak semester III hari tu memang tension ah. Tak macam first sem and second sem lepas. First week tu aku terpaksa men'sardin'kan diri ni kat dalam AMF untuk add/drop session. Kena thru add/drop process pun sebab aku kena repeat english -,-... Kalau kena repeat je takpe jugak ni sebab english satu je habis jadual aku yang lain clash. So untuk solve the problems aku terpaksa tukar group untuk semua subjek aku T_T. Subjek yang aku amik sem ni - Physics 2, Math 2, Chemistry 1, BTQ and Study Circle - asalnya semua group 65 sekali dengan member classmate lama. Tapi dengan additional subject English Level 6 terpaksa aku buat sendiri jadual aku. Seharian duk try and error satu-satu group so that jadual tak clash... Annoying gila! >.<

Lepas dua hari baru selesai buat add/drop nih. Tapi yang takbestnya aku dah tak satu group dengan classmate lama except untuk satu subjek je - Physics 2. Yang lain semua classmate baru. Aku pulak style susah nak berkawan ni memang agak keseorangan ah dalam kelas. Tiap kali nak ke kelas rasa malas je. Why? Pasal takde geng (u.u). Sekarang boleh kira kot berapa patah perkataan aku cakap dalam sehari sebab jarang betul untuk aku nak keluarkan perkataan dpd mulut ni. Macam takde benda nak tanya, nak cakap. Orang takstart dulu aku 10 kali lagi susah nak start conversation ( _ _ ll)... Dengan sister lagi laa memang tak pernah nak mulakan - tggu orang start dulu je. Kalau takstart maka memang takcakap la sampai bila-bila. Kelaut pulak topik aku ni -.-... Jadual aku semester ni memang padat gila - kelas Isnin sampai la Jumaat, pagi sampai la petang +.+ ... Tapi Alhamdulillah lecturer setakat ni semua best-best :))

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

 Hai readers yang baik semua. Selamat Tahun Baru!

Aku pulak tak berapa nak selamat dengan tahun baru ni. Haihh. Hari terakhir 2012, aku bersin tak henti-henti. Dengan pening kepala lagi, aku pun batalkan niat aku untuk sambut detik pertama 2013. Plan asal ingat nak naik rooftop untuk raikan dengan member-member. Aku terbaring atas katil mengadap laptop je. Sabor je laa...

 Tepat jam 00:00 1 January 2013, terdengar letupan-letupan bunga api dari sekitar Petaling Jaya. Memang kuat gila. Dah la daripada banyak tempat. Memang cantik kot kalau tengok daripada rooftop. Aku dalam bilik nampak sipi-sipi je. Bunga api je pun. Bukan car show. AHAHA! Ada dengar gak budak-budak CFS ni menjerit-jerit. Jerit ape entah. Tahun baru je oii~ Masihi pulak tu bukannya Hijriah pun. Bagi aku takde beza pun antara last-last momen 2012 dengan detik-detik awal 2013. Sama je. Still tak selesa dengan hidung dan kepala pening plus SEJUKKK! Gila kaki aku memang ketar-ketar ah...

Hari berlalu dengan agak perlahan. Then, sampailah hari yang aku tunggu-tunggu, 4 Januari 2013. Hari Exam FINAL! Bukan sebab excited nak jawab soalan, tapi sebab lepas exam terus balik Kelantan! :D  Exam hari tu waktu petang, daripada pukul 3 - 6 petang. And condition aku masih sama. DEMAM! :( Punyalah pening kepala nak habiskan semua soalan tu. Agak susah laa~ Target aku masa tu asal passed je. Tak kira lah berapa asalkan aku lulus and tak perlu repeat. Sakit kot main repeat-repeat nih....

( _ _ll)

Then, seusai solat maghrib, aku dengan member aku memulakan perjalanan ke Kelantan. Meninggalkan CFSIIUM melalui pintu masjid je. Malas nak jalan jauh plus langit tengah hujan renyai-renyai. Haih memang susah nak sembuh la demam ni, asyik main hujan je... Sampai tepi jalan, maka bermulalah penantian yang memeritkan. Tunggu BAS! Dengan jalan sesak, bas pulak takde satu pun yang kelihatan. Tension! ;( Lepas dalam sejam setengah tunggu, barulah muncul bas Metro 12. Beg pun punyalah berat nak angkut naik bas. Sakit bahu woo~ Jam dah pukul 9 malam. Jalan sesak. Bas ke Kelantan pukul 10 malam. Nais~ ( _ _ll) Aku dah kecut perut dah takut terlepas bas. Aku turun kat MidValley then sambung naik KTM pulak untuk ke Putra. KTM pulak punya la 'LAJU'! Memang layan ah perjalanan merentasi 4 stesen tuh.

Tepat jam 10.00 malam, KTM sampai kat Stesen KTM Putra. Aku dengan member aku jalan laju-laju. Nasib baik beg ada tayar, kalau tak mampus angkut beg berat tuh. Sepuluh minit kemudian, sampai dalam Hentian Putra. Ramai. Sesak! And aku terus ke kaunter Ekspress Perdana tanya pasal bas aku. Alhamdulillah bas belum sampai lagi. Phewww~ Then, aku pergi ke mall depan Hentian Putra tinggal kawan aku sorang tuh untuk jaga beg. Aku pergi ambil duit and beli makanan sikit. Lapar wooo!
And dalam pukul 10.15 malam bas Trip KL15 sampai. Seat kitorang kat depan sekali atas driver. Best! Screen Full HD 70'! XD ... Alhamdulillah pukul 6.15 pagi esoknya aku selamat sampai di Kota Bharu Bandar Raya Islam. :)

jalan berkabus di Machang

 And now 7 Januari 2013, jam 9.35 malam; selesema, batuk, and pening kepala masih menyelubungi diri yang lemah nih. Harap-harap sembuhlah esok or lusa. Letih dah main dengan sakit nih. So, that's it. Aku dah letih nih. So, Assalamualaikum w.b.t. and selamat malam! :)