Setahun lepas aku struggling untuk naikkan pointer kat CFSIIUM so that I could pursue my studies for Degree in Engineering. But then I knew, I was too late. Banyak main. Banyak kelain. Join itu ini, pelajaran kelaut. So aku decide I've to put this away. I need a fresh start.
Habis je final exam kat CFSIIUM aku terus apply UniKL. Aku pilih Multimedia sebab aku rasa aku memang minat bahagian ni. Tapi aku takde basic, so nak tak nak aku kena buat major u-turn. Diploma! Alhamdulillah aku dapat Diploma in Multimedia kat UniKL MIIT under pinjaman MARA. Aku buat semua sendiri sebab dah banyak susahkan parent. Borang semua isi sendiri sampai la registration day pun aku ke KL sendiri sorang sorang.
And now it's almost a year dah aku jadi student UniKL. So far academically, aku rasa okay. Subjek aku minat, aku enjoy. Semua tau aku sangat susah to make new friend, tapi alhamdulillah aku berjaya made few friends. Aku still belom 100% move on from IIUM. Dalam sebulan banyak kali gak aku lepak sana jumpa member. Member yang dah susah senang dari CFSIIUM. Walau diorang dah degree, still kawan. Thanks guys.
Senang ke u-turn? Heck no! Malu. Depressed. Ye lah semua yang sebaya dah degree and so on. Dah dulu pikir kelain, main main and maybe tu memang bukan jalan aku. So aku just berserah kepadaNya and buat terbaik untuk aku yang sekarang. But then I believe hidup bukan selalu kat atas, and aku percaya so far ini yang terbaik untuk aku.
Life is a journey, and every journey must face the rough phase, so maybe this is it. "Hidup ni susah! Kalau senang tu bukan hidup dah tu" - Bro Aiman Azlan, Endless Journey Talk, AMF Hall CFSIIUM.
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.
Hai guys. Lama tak lepak depan laptop melalut kat blog ni. Haha. It had been a pretty busy semester this semester. Kinda hard to write anything here. So now tetiba rajin pulak nak update and changed it a bit. So here's the story of the past semester - The Semester 2.
Sedar tak sedar, dah habis dah semester 2 aku kat UniKL ni. Means that aku dah almost a year bergelar mahasiswa UniKL MIIT. Eventhough it is not quite great achievement for me as ramai dah geng sebaya are already pursuing their degree, but it is a progress for me. So, alhamdulillah. :)
Semester started a bit 'kalut' for me as I ter'drop' subjek yang dah pre-register on system. Saja gatal tangan test system, then terdrop subjek Pengajian Amalan Islam. Terganggu sikit first week tu sebab kena manually add balik which is sangatlah leceh. HAHA. First week kinda hectic, everyday kena naik office yang tiap masa penuh masa tu.
A week after alhamdulillah dah okay dah settle. Get to the lecturers and the classmate. Lecturer semua okay, baik, friendly and really great. Subject pun semuanya quite fun for me - except Mandarin. AHA. Susah wei pahamkan bahasa baru ni. Berbelit semuanya. Schedule pun takdelah pack sangat, rilek rilek je. Subject that I took this semester was - Communication English 1, Pengajian Amalan Islam, Mandarin 1 (next sem Mandarin 2. T_T), Intro. to Multimedia Development, C# Programming, Basic Graphic Design, Storyboard Visualisation.
Compared to my first semester at the UniKL, I barely know anyone, but this time I'm glad to have few acquaintances throughout the semester. Moving in to a new house with housemates of the same courses gave me an advantage. Communication got better rather than before and my confidence level had rose up a bit. :) Thanks guys! The classmates are also quite nice. Can't tell much about them because I don't know much about them all, but they're cool in their own way. Everybody got their own things, their own speciality and whatever it is, I'm grateful to have meet them.
Okay meh nak share sikit apa aktiviti semester lepas - sepintas lalu ja:
Communication English 1 - We organised a charity sale with a concept of "Dedicate Your Love" and the money collected are given to reach out the homeless around the KL. The program are really great. I as the leader in Multimedia Department did my best for the program and so were others. Alhamdulillah the event went smoothly.
Basic Graphic Design - On first task, we were asked to create a photomontage of our own photo with wany celebrity we want. This wasn't really hard. The second and the final project was quite tense - creating identity design. We had to come out with our own company and its background and create the whole identity of the company - the letterhead, envelope, business card and other. But eventually, we did it pretty well I guess. HAHA.
Pengajian Amalan Islam - in the beginning of the semester aku awal lagi. Right on time! But then time change, and so were I. HAHA. Sampai dah lewat, pastu gi breakfast dulu, then baru masuk lecture hall. Bad. Then at the end of semester, there was a CSR project - our class decided on gotong royong around Taman Tasik Titiwangsa and had an explorace game. Aku dengan member dari awal buat problem. Bayar lewat. Datang lambat program. Then hesitate nak join group yang dah pecah. HAHA. I don't know why, but I kinda enjoy the moment. Sorry! ;P Well at the end of the day, we all enjoy ourselves.
Storyboard Visualisation - this subject walaupun aku tak berapa minat sebab kena melukis which are not my cup of tea. But sebab lecturer dia cool gila so aku jadi enjoy. Sir Amad Fahmi - been to overseas for years and recently return to Malaysia, his Bahasa Melayu are quite fun and cool. HAHA. And lawak gak orangnya. And quite charming. Kahkahkah! This subject more on drawing. The final project was kena buat short TV ads. Walaupun aku tak berapa nak reti dengan video editing and recording and storyline bagai tu, I enjoyed the project. Ni haa link video advertisement kitorang - LINK .
Intro to Multimedia Development - yang ni agak slow progress dia. Haha. Nota semua aku taktahu pape. Memang lost dalam lecture, sebab mostly dengar je. Tido la jawab dia. But masa lab enjoy. Main Flash. Hehe. Buat itu ini. Final task was to develop a website application. Alhamdulillah yang ni ended well eventhough mencabar gak laa nak settle dia.
C# Programming - this one aku really enjoy. I don't know why but buat programming so far is fun! Hopefully sampai bila bila lah fun dia tu ada. HAHAH. Final project kena prepare satu program that consists of semua chapter yang belajar. Yang ni paling aku concentrate and paling pening nak settle sebab complicated and program panjang gilaaaa! First week of project aku spent time of planning the function of program je and the next week after aku start coding. Dulu kat CFSIIUM aku buat project flight reservation for C Programming tapi never succeed to finish it. This time aku buat hotel reservation. Alhamdulillah I'm really proud of me and my partner program. Syok gila kot buat benda ni kalau takde error. KALAU TAKDE ERROR OKAY! Kalau tetiba keluar error and berterusan banyak kali, fed up gila! HAHAHAHA
Honestly aku tak berapa puas hati dengan aku kat kampus. I don't know why. Tapi aku memang taktau lah kan apa orang anggap aku kat kampus sana. Hopefully anggapan baik baik je lah and hopefully I didn't made any enemy. I'd tried my best untuk tolong semua kenalan takat aku mampu. One thing pasal aku is aku susah nak cakap. HAHA. Problem lama. Orang tegur baru aku reply. Number number budak UniKL pun berapa kerat je ada. Even number budak housemate pun aku tak save. Save memory! Hehe jange maroh! ;P
One thing for sure is that semester 2 dah habis! Done! Tammat! Result exam pun bila nak keluar aku pun taktahu and belom ambil tahu. But I'm hoping for the best for myself and friends! :)
Panjang siot entry malam ni. HAHAHAHA. Kbye!
Selamat berpuasa! Puasa jangan tak puasa k!
Hai guys. Lama tak lepak depan laptop melalut kat blog ni. Haha. It had been a pretty busy semester this semester. Kinda hard to write anything here. So now tetiba rajin pulak nak update and changed it a bit. So here's the story of the past semester - The Semester 2.
Sedar tak sedar, dah habis dah semester 2 aku kat UniKL ni. Means that aku dah almost a year bergelar mahasiswa UniKL MIIT. Eventhough it is not quite great achievement for me as ramai dah geng sebaya are already pursuing their degree, but it is a progress for me. So, alhamdulillah. :)
Semester started a bit 'kalut' for me as I ter'drop' subjek yang dah pre-register on system. Saja gatal tangan test system, then terdrop subjek Pengajian Amalan Islam. Terganggu sikit first week tu sebab kena manually add balik which is sangatlah leceh. HAHA. First week kinda hectic, everyday kena naik office yang tiap masa penuh masa tu.
A week after alhamdulillah dah okay dah settle. Get to the lecturers and the classmate. Lecturer semua okay, baik, friendly and really great. Subject pun semuanya quite fun for me - except Mandarin. AHA. Susah wei pahamkan bahasa baru ni. Berbelit semuanya. Schedule pun takdelah pack sangat, rilek rilek je. Subject that I took this semester was - Communication English 1, Pengajian Amalan Islam, Mandarin 1 (next sem Mandarin 2. T_T), Intro. to Multimedia Development, C# Programming, Basic Graphic Design, Storyboard Visualisation.
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| Selfie with Sir Amad. |
Compared to my first semester at the UniKL, I barely know anyone, but this time I'm glad to have few acquaintances throughout the semester. Moving in to a new house with housemates of the same courses gave me an advantage. Communication got better rather than before and my confidence level had rose up a bit. :) Thanks guys! The classmates are also quite nice. Can't tell much about them because I don't know much about them all, but they're cool in their own way. Everybody got their own things, their own speciality and whatever it is, I'm grateful to have meet them.
Communication English 1 - We organised a charity sale with a concept of "Dedicate Your Love" and the money collected are given to reach out the homeless around the KL. The program are really great. I as the leader in Multimedia Department did my best for the program and so were others. Alhamdulillah the event went smoothly.
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| Jaga photobooth. Seems bored right? Haha |
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| Kerja kerja. |
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| Ni booth sale items. |
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| This masa reach out the homeless. |
Pengajian Amalan Islam - in the beginning of the semester aku awal lagi. Right on time! But then time change, and so were I. HAHA. Sampai dah lewat, pastu gi breakfast dulu, then baru masuk lecture hall. Bad. Then at the end of semester, there was a CSR project - our class decided on gotong royong around Taman Tasik Titiwangsa and had an explorace game. Aku dengan member dari awal buat problem. Bayar lewat. Datang lambat program. Then hesitate nak join group yang dah pecah. HAHA. I don't know why, but I kinda enjoy the moment. Sorry! ;P Well at the end of the day, we all enjoy ourselves.
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| Explorace! Layankan je la. |
Intro to Multimedia Development - yang ni agak slow progress dia. Haha. Nota semua aku taktahu pape. Memang lost dalam lecture, sebab mostly dengar je. Tido la jawab dia. But masa lab enjoy. Main Flash. Hehe. Buat itu ini. Final task was to develop a website application. Alhamdulillah yang ni ended well eventhough mencabar gak laa nak settle dia.
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| Teaser rupa web app aku. Hehe |
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| Intro program aku. :)) |
One thing for sure is that semester 2 dah habis! Done! Tammat! Result exam pun bila nak keluar aku pun taktahu and belom ambil tahu. But I'm hoping for the best for myself and friends! :)
Selamat berpuasa! Puasa jangan tak puasa k!
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.
Baru je last week masuk duit, and guess what?!
Minggu ni dah tinggal I don't know how to describe it. Pening betol aku dengan duit ni. Rasa takde buat apa pun, belanja pun makan minum minyak - itu je. Lepas settle bayar sewa rumah, belom lagi segala bil semua, tapi tapi tapi dah half je tinggal. T.T
Dah banyak bulan aku try manage dengan betul duit duit tu, yet nothing happen. Except for February, aku rasa agak sukses perbelanjaan bulan tu. Duit cukup-cukup sampai end of month and ada la balance sikit. Tapi bulan lain-lain, hampeh. Cukup-cukup bulan lesap semua. Kosong! Empty! Ada lah try cari makan dengan kamira, but still tak kemana jugak. Lagipun tak berani nak offer kerja sangat sebab takde equipment sangat. Just body dengan satu lens dengan experience yang tak seberapa. Heh. Sesungguhnya banyak gila lagi benda aku kena explore kena belajar kena lalui.
Sakit gak la dah lepas belasan tahun, tapi perihal duit perihal belanja semua kelaut. Dengan keadaan ekonomi yang sekarang ni, gila nak survive for another 30 years. Mana-mana perlu duit. Haih.
Hopefully money management aku bertambah lebih baik pasni and dapat jana sikit duit dengan usaha sendiri. Sikit pun dikira improvement jugak. InsyaAllah...
Baru je last week masuk duit, and guess what?!
Minggu ni dah tinggal I don't know how to describe it. Pening betol aku dengan duit ni. Rasa takde buat apa pun, belanja pun makan minum minyak - itu je. Lepas settle bayar sewa rumah, belom lagi segala bil semua, tapi tapi tapi dah half je tinggal. T.T
Dah banyak bulan aku try manage dengan betul duit duit tu, yet nothing happen. Except for February, aku rasa agak sukses perbelanjaan bulan tu. Duit cukup-cukup sampai end of month and ada la balance sikit. Tapi bulan lain-lain, hampeh. Cukup-cukup bulan lesap semua. Kosong! Empty! Ada lah try cari makan dengan kamira, but still tak kemana jugak. Lagipun tak berani nak offer kerja sangat sebab takde equipment sangat. Just body dengan satu lens dengan experience yang tak seberapa. Heh. Sesungguhnya banyak gila lagi benda aku kena explore kena belajar kena lalui.
Sakit gak la dah lepas belasan tahun, tapi perihal duit perihal belanja semua kelaut. Dengan keadaan ekonomi yang sekarang ni, gila nak survive for another 30 years. Mana-mana perlu duit. Haih.
Hopefully money management aku bertambah lebih baik pasni and dapat jana sikit duit dengan usaha sendiri. Sikit pun dikira improvement jugak. InsyaAllah...
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.
Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah yang mana telah bagi memberi kepanjangan umur untuk aku hidup di bumi yang penuh misteri ni.
Perhh I AM TWENTY ONE! Cepat gila masa berlalu. Still aku rasa macam blur lagi dengan diri sendiri. Soalan - soalan biasa yang kalau ditanya kat orang lain rasanya senang je nak jawab, tapi bagi aku still complicated; favorited color, favorited food or drink, favorite place. Inikan pulak soalan yang lagi complicated bagi orang lain. Sesungguhnya soalan yang subjektif ni memang susah nak dirungkai and to most questions biasanya aku jawab:
Socially? I guess aku masih sama dengan aku yang Darjah 3, or Darjah 6, or Form 1 or Form 3, 4, 5. Sama! Takde beza! Hardly to talk to others except you guys start it first and still nervous gila vav* dengan makhluk dikenali sisters or girl or perempuan, whichever you call it lah. Haha! Sometimes I feel it as blessing. Why? Sebab takde laa aku berani nak approach crush-crush aku and risk to be brokenhearted is small. Hahahah. But, honestly, sometimes ada la tension tu. Orang lain bahagia dengan bakal zaujah bakal zauj diorang, ada yang dah plan detail nak kahwin and whatsoever, aku still setia dengan kamira jek! Haha! A truely materialistic guy. Hahahaha! Tapi kesah apa aku, ada jodoh, sampai masa nanti jumpa lah jugak kan? InsyaAllah. Sesungguhnya Allah sebaik-baik perancang. :)
Kadang-kadang aku ni macam banyak personaliti je aku rasa. Kejap-kejap ignoramusi. Tak kesah langsung hal orang lain, buat dunno jek. Malas nak sebok. Haha. Sometimes aku jadi sensitive sangat pulak. Tengok cerita touching sikit dah meleleh mata. Haha jeng! Orang buat lawak sikit pun kadang dah keluar air mata gak. Tak tahulah a disease or what. Tapi serious masa baca Twitter dapat tahu pemergian Allahyarham TGNA, aku memang ketar and sebak. Tak tahu kenapa tapi memang terasa even sekali or dua je jumpa secara dekat. Moga TGNA ditempatkan bersama para solihin dan para anbiya'. InsyAllah.
Dalam banyak-banyak benda, benda yang aku rasa memang diri aku adalah I'm An Observer. Aku suka duk sorang pada satu sudut and perhati semua benda. Jalan-jalan dengan member pun aku duduk belakang sekali and observe; tak guna mata, aku guna viewfinder kamira. And then aku dalam kelas memang allergic duduk depan or else aku jadi nervous and ketar ketar (lagi lagi kelas sejuk gilaaa!). Habis semua nota aku tak dapat selain sebab ketar, Kalau duk belakang bahagia je. And maybe that's why aku suka dengan kamira. It's give me a superpower to observe and keep it forever! And seriously aku tak suka dengan serabut. Dengar lagu kuat takpe as long as takde bunyi lain interrupt aku.
And maybe that' why aku suka sendiri je. Takde nak menyusahkan orang or sakitkan orang yang sememangnya impossible to predict. Kejap okay kejap mental. Tak paham wooo! Another thing is aku suka gilaa gilaaa ride entah kemana! Haha! Start moto then vroooommmm blah berlalu. Tapi tengok cuaca gak lah. Dah terlalu ribut, tengok moto je lah. Haha. Even moto cikai je, tapi ride tu best! And aku memang agak menjaga safety kit aku. Keluar memana mesti pakai jaket, helmet (ni wajib!) and kasut! Why? Sebab aku pun takut sebenarnya dengan cara tunggangan aku. Tak pernah nak slow biarpun moto tak laju mana pon. Haha! And aku suka tulis! Kalau tak, takdenya panjang gini aku melalut. Kah!
Tu je lah kott benda yang obvious pada aku menjelang 21 tahun lepas. Gila tak sangka aku still survive in this world. Alhamdulillah! :)) Hopefully meningkat umur mendekati mati ni aku dapat jadi a better person in every aspect. Maybe tak signifikan pun improvement tapi ada peningkatan from the 20-years-old me.
So that's all je lah kott!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOHN FRIDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AFIQ FIDA'IY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEE!
ALL THE BEST, DEAR MYSELF!
Assalamualaikum!
(written on 16 Feb 2015, published on 2nd March '15. I'm 21 years and 1 day old. )
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.
Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah yang mana telah bagi memberi kepanjangan umur untuk aku hidup di bumi yang penuh misteri ni.
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| Happy 21st birthday John! Semua yang aku tulis ni ada dalam surat .21 nih. ;) |
Perhh I AM TWENTY ONE! Cepat gila masa berlalu. Still aku rasa macam blur lagi dengan diri sendiri. Soalan - soalan biasa yang kalau ditanya kat orang lain rasanya senang je nak jawab, tapi bagi aku still complicated; favorited color, favorited food or drink, favorite place. Inikan pulak soalan yang lagi complicated bagi orang lain. Sesungguhnya soalan yang subjektif ni memang susah nak dirungkai and to most questions biasanya aku jawab:
"Entahlaaa belalang..."Sepanjang hayat, umur 20 tahun aku rasa paling mencabar setakat ni. Macam - macam benda aku lalui hadapi. I dropped myself from IIUM and then made a major u-turn to enroll myself to UniKL Dip. Multimedia Programme. Kalau orang lain maybe dah habis diploma or dah masuk degree, academically aku still struggle to get myself right. Biarlah apa orang nak kata, asalkan aku tak give up! Well tu dari segi academically lah...
Socially? I guess aku masih sama dengan aku yang Darjah 3, or Darjah 6, or Form 1 or Form 3, 4, 5. Sama! Takde beza! Hardly to talk to others except you guys start it first and still nervous gila vav* dengan makhluk dikenali sisters or girl or perempuan, whichever you call it lah. Haha! Sometimes I feel it as blessing. Why? Sebab takde laa aku berani nak approach crush-crush aku and risk to be brokenhearted is small. Hahahah. But, honestly, sometimes ada la tension tu. Orang lain bahagia dengan bakal zaujah bakal zauj diorang, ada yang dah plan detail nak kahwin and whatsoever, aku still setia dengan kamira jek! Haha! A truely materialistic guy. Hahahaha! Tapi kesah apa aku, ada jodoh, sampai masa nanti jumpa lah jugak kan? InsyaAllah. Sesungguhnya Allah sebaik-baik perancang. :)
Kadang-kadang aku ni macam banyak personaliti je aku rasa. Kejap-kejap ignoramusi. Tak kesah langsung hal orang lain, buat dunno jek. Malas nak sebok. Haha. Sometimes aku jadi sensitive sangat pulak. Tengok cerita touching sikit dah meleleh mata. Haha jeng! Orang buat lawak sikit pun kadang dah keluar air mata gak. Tak tahulah a disease or what. Tapi serious masa baca Twitter dapat tahu pemergian Allahyarham TGNA, aku memang ketar and sebak. Tak tahu kenapa tapi memang terasa even sekali or dua je jumpa secara dekat. Moga TGNA ditempatkan bersama para solihin dan para anbiya'. InsyAllah.
Dalam banyak-banyak benda, benda yang aku rasa memang diri aku adalah I'm An Observer. Aku suka duk sorang pada satu sudut and perhati semua benda. Jalan-jalan dengan member pun aku duduk belakang sekali and observe; tak guna mata, aku guna viewfinder kamira. And then aku dalam kelas memang allergic duduk depan or else aku jadi nervous and ketar ketar (lagi lagi kelas sejuk gilaaa!). Habis semua nota aku tak dapat selain sebab ketar, Kalau duk belakang bahagia je. And maybe that's why aku suka dengan kamira. It's give me a superpower to observe and keep it forever! And seriously aku tak suka dengan serabut. Dengar lagu kuat takpe as long as takde bunyi lain interrupt aku.
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| Dak mental! Hahaha! |
Tu je lah kott benda yang obvious pada aku menjelang 21 tahun lepas. Gila tak sangka aku still survive in this world. Alhamdulillah! :)) Hopefully meningkat umur mendekati mati ni aku dapat jadi a better person in every aspect. Maybe tak signifikan pun improvement tapi ada peningkatan from the 20-years-old me.
So that's all je lah kott!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOHN FRIDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AFIQ FIDA'IY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEE!
ALL THE BEST, DEAR MYSELF!
Assalamualaikum!
(written on 16 Feb 2015, published on 2nd March '15. I'm 21 years and 1 day old. )
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.
Hi guys. Really not in the mood to express anything lately. Not because nothing happened, but too many things had happen in quite short period of time. Drives my expression system crazy. Sometimes I don't even know what to feel. Crazy, isn't it? And it's happen to be that tomorrow English classes is postponed due to some reason, so I kinda have much time to think what to put in here this time. Still working on the contents by the time I wrote this so it might get upside down, a bit messy topic I guess. Hahah.
I just finished watch one of the TEDTalk just now. It's about something that always come to my mind - Why Do We Do What We Do? Here's the LINK. I always went to TED websites for their talks. I found it interesting and the speakers are somehow really cool and the talk are kinda easy to understand. Plus, it have subtitles option on the web.
So why do we do what we do huh? From what I have been through all these years, what I do is much because that's the BEST I think I can do. Besides, it also because of my belief, Islam and my eagerness to impress others; especially my parent. And from the talk that I just heard we do what we do because of fulfilment. Fulfilment to our desire, needs and belief. For me, yeah, it is true. We do anything to fulfil our feeling toward something, our desire to have a better life and our faith to do thing for our belief.
In Standard 6, I'd my UPSR. I do my best on that exam. Why? Because it's my fulfilment for my future. I want to get into good secondary school and thanks God, my hardwork paid. A year later, I went to SMU(A)MML, one of the top school in Kelantan (I guess. Haha). Two years later, I sat my PMR examination. Throughout the year, I do my best to get the best out of me for this exam. Why? Because I believe that moving out to other school was something great. I got great result for PMR and offered to go to Sekolah Alam Shah in KL. I went. And not more than 1 month, I was back in Maahad Muhammadi Lelaki. Ashamed. Hahah. This one I don't really know why, but it's not as what I thought it will be when I was there. Homesick. Day full of study, books and revision. I thought I might die due to this. Hahah.
In Form 4, we as a religous school student had our SMU; Sijil Menengah Ugama. It's an examination of religious subject that we learned; Hadith, Quran, Tafsir, History of Islam and so on. And it's in fully Arabic which I don't really master. And patheticly, I only managed to get 2 Mumtaz (Excellence) out of 10 subject. And it's just Bahasa and English subject. Until this day I still haven't mastered Arabic. On the last year of my secondary school, we had our SPM. The biggest exam student will face. The exam that mostly said as the key to our future. I don't really hold to that saying. For me exam is merely just an exam, to test our brain at that moment. If we want to change our life, we can do it anytime. We just have to figure it out how. There must be a way. But, I also want to get to a best university so that I can pursue my ambition which I don't really knew what. That whole year was hectic. On the day, I got school to attend. Then evening full of extra classes. The night come with tuition at several places in a week. It's like my brain was only concentrating on what the exam question will ask. I was kinda bad in communication which resulting me as a lone ranger at most time. I don't really talk to people. Tend to be alone, I like it. And Alhamdulillah, my hardwork has been paid by the good result that I got.
After few days of thinking where I want to continue my studies, I decided to go to IIUM in engineering course. That's when I was kinda adrift. On the first two semester, I was okay. My study pattern was still like when I was in Form 5. I still bad in making friends or triggering any communication. But then, I started to join society and event held by the club or universities. I enjoy taking photos and making poster and everything that's not engineering. And some of my friends had changed courses and joining Economics courses. My mind started to collapse. Thinking this and that. And my objective was deviated. I started to think - is this what I really want? To be an engineer? And that time my study pattern changed. I started to felt that I don't think I really want all this. On the few last weeks of second semester, I also applied to change course - I applied to change to Architecture. With my mind telling me that I my application would go through, I ignore my final exam. I just sat the exam so that I just pass the subject, not to get the best out of me. I lost interest to study harder in engineering. And the next semester, when the result of application out, I didn't got through. My pointer already low, and it's painful to accept it. My stubbornness killed me. It's really really hard to increase pointer, and amazingly easy to drop it. With the subject that getting more difficult, I know this gonna end, not as what I expect when I got in. So, before the final exam on the final semester, I already sent an application to UniKL to continue in Multimedia. And now, here I am. Two years behind of everybody at my age. It's hurt. Always feel humiliated. But that's it. I made decision and I have to accept it. Besides, life is a test. Whatever happens, happens.
Now, I trying my best not to let myself down again. Even it's hurt to see me behind my friends in studies, I believe that there's something behind this. Right now, the semester haven't been really hard yet. I manage to understand most of the thing easily. And hopefully I gonna end successfully here. Everything that I'd done was a fulfilment; to fulfil my need to my future, to make my parent and friends proud of me. But sometimes I let the bad sides of my emotion got on the line. We have to control our emotions so that the positive emotion always be at our side.
We also do things to fulfil our faith towards our deen. Islam told us to be caliph on this world. And to be caliph, we have to do our best, no matter in what aspects; attitude, behaviour, demeanor and so on. How can we be a caliph if we can't even live on our own.
So get the best out of us! Wallahu 'alam...
// aku tak tau apa aku bebel ni, aku just tulis apa yang terlintas je. abaikan penggunaan grammar English yang tidak tepat jauh kelaut antartika sebab aku memang tak reti English. Saje tulis in English sebab aku rasa aku boleh master English ni. Hahaha.
Hi guys. Really not in the mood to express anything lately. Not because nothing happened, but too many things had happen in quite short period of time. Drives my expression system crazy. Sometimes I don't even know what to feel. Crazy, isn't it? And it's happen to be that tomorrow English classes is postponed due to some reason, so I kinda have much time to think what to put in here this time. Still working on the contents by the time I wrote this so it might get upside down, a bit messy topic I guess. Hahah.
I just finished watch one of the TEDTalk just now. It's about something that always come to my mind - Why Do We Do What We Do? Here's the LINK. I always went to TED websites for their talks. I found it interesting and the speakers are somehow really cool and the talk are kinda easy to understand. Plus, it have subtitles option on the web.
So why do we do what we do huh? From what I have been through all these years, what I do is much because that's the BEST I think I can do. Besides, it also because of my belief, Islam and my eagerness to impress others; especially my parent. And from the talk that I just heard we do what we do because of fulfilment. Fulfilment to our desire, needs and belief. For me, yeah, it is true. We do anything to fulfil our feeling toward something, our desire to have a better life and our faith to do thing for our belief.
In Standard 6, I'd my UPSR. I do my best on that exam. Why? Because it's my fulfilment for my future. I want to get into good secondary school and thanks God, my hardwork paid. A year later, I went to SMU(A)MML, one of the top school in Kelantan (I guess. Haha). Two years later, I sat my PMR examination. Throughout the year, I do my best to get the best out of me for this exam. Why? Because I believe that moving out to other school was something great. I got great result for PMR and offered to go to Sekolah Alam Shah in KL. I went. And not more than 1 month, I was back in Maahad Muhammadi Lelaki. Ashamed. Hahah. This one I don't really know why, but it's not as what I thought it will be when I was there. Homesick. Day full of study, books and revision. I thought I might die due to this. Hahah.
In Form 4, we as a religous school student had our SMU; Sijil Menengah Ugama. It's an examination of religious subject that we learned; Hadith, Quran, Tafsir, History of Islam and so on. And it's in fully Arabic which I don't really master. And patheticly, I only managed to get 2 Mumtaz (Excellence) out of 10 subject. And it's just Bahasa and English subject. Until this day I still haven't mastered Arabic. On the last year of my secondary school, we had our SPM. The biggest exam student will face. The exam that mostly said as the key to our future. I don't really hold to that saying. For me exam is merely just an exam, to test our brain at that moment. If we want to change our life, we can do it anytime. We just have to figure it out how. There must be a way. But, I also want to get to a best university so that I can pursue my ambition which I don't really knew what. That whole year was hectic. On the day, I got school to attend. Then evening full of extra classes. The night come with tuition at several places in a week. It's like my brain was only concentrating on what the exam question will ask. I was kinda bad in communication which resulting me as a lone ranger at most time. I don't really talk to people. Tend to be alone, I like it. And Alhamdulillah, my hardwork has been paid by the good result that I got.
After few days of thinking where I want to continue my studies, I decided to go to IIUM in engineering course. That's when I was kinda adrift. On the first two semester, I was okay. My study pattern was still like when I was in Form 5. I still bad in making friends or triggering any communication. But then, I started to join society and event held by the club or universities. I enjoy taking photos and making poster and everything that's not engineering. And some of my friends had changed courses and joining Economics courses. My mind started to collapse. Thinking this and that. And my objective was deviated. I started to think - is this what I really want? To be an engineer? And that time my study pattern changed. I started to felt that I don't think I really want all this. On the few last weeks of second semester, I also applied to change course - I applied to change to Architecture. With my mind telling me that I my application would go through, I ignore my final exam. I just sat the exam so that I just pass the subject, not to get the best out of me. I lost interest to study harder in engineering. And the next semester, when the result of application out, I didn't got through. My pointer already low, and it's painful to accept it. My stubbornness killed me. It's really really hard to increase pointer, and amazingly easy to drop it. With the subject that getting more difficult, I know this gonna end, not as what I expect when I got in. So, before the final exam on the final semester, I already sent an application to UniKL to continue in Multimedia. And now, here I am. Two years behind of everybody at my age. It's hurt. Always feel humiliated. But that's it. I made decision and I have to accept it. Besides, life is a test. Whatever happens, happens.
Now, I trying my best not to let myself down again. Even it's hurt to see me behind my friends in studies, I believe that there's something behind this. Right now, the semester haven't been really hard yet. I manage to understand most of the thing easily. And hopefully I gonna end successfully here. Everything that I'd done was a fulfilment; to fulfil my need to my future, to make my parent and friends proud of me. But sometimes I let the bad sides of my emotion got on the line. We have to control our emotions so that the positive emotion always be at our side.
We also do things to fulfil our faith towards our deen. Islam told us to be caliph on this world. And to be caliph, we have to do our best, no matter in what aspects; attitude, behaviour, demeanor and so on. How can we be a caliph if we can't even live on our own.
So get the best out of us! Wallahu 'alam...
// aku tak tau apa aku bebel ni, aku just tulis apa yang terlintas je. abaikan penggunaan grammar English yang tidak tepat jauh kelaut antartika sebab aku memang tak reti English. Saje tulis in English sebab aku rasa aku boleh master English ni. Hahaha.
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.
Dah lama gila dah tak log in Blogger and tambah entry baru. Busy dengan new environment which I'm still trying to adapt, and bad connection problem. Dah banyak hari nawaitu nak tulis entry baru, tapi bila bukak page ni, nak tulis je semua bercelaru. There's no word to express what exactly I feel right now.
This entry pun sebenarnya nak letak perkhabaran sikit je. Aku pun taktau aku okay ke tak ni. Still breathing, so aku okay lah kot. Hahah.
This is what my mind looks right now. Serabut gila. Kah!
Okay lah. Tu je. Bye!
